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Name: Joel
Birthday: 2/21/1990
Gender: Male


Interests: Guitar, Rugby, Ping pong, hitting the weights, parties, friends, having a good time, Music is my life, protecting the ones I love, Driving my car!
Expertise: I know how to handle many weapons and I can hit anything I aim at with any kind of shotgun guaranteed. Ping pong no one can beat me. Trained Killer. Super Smash Brothers Brawl, Halo 3, James Bond Nightfire
Occupation: Marine
Industry: The United States Marine Corps


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Member Since: 10/13/2004

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Back Again

Wow it really has been a long time since i have been on here, three years to be exact... Time flys by so fast when you think about it.. In three years from being a heart broken junior, one can turn into a fully fleged Marine.. Yes I did join the Corps and yes i will kill people that is my job, to be a combat arms. I look forward to the fight, I have trained long and hard for it. I have moved away from my friends, my family and started over. Homesick? Yes. Tired? Yes. Accomplished?.. Yes..

I am proud of who I am and what I have become. It has always been my dream to protect people, to be the hero.. This is as close as I can get. The USMC is tough but I made it through, I am tougher. At nineteen years old I am illegal to drink, rent a car, or buy a house, but I have the authority and skills to kill.... For some reason, I feel like something is wrong in that area. At sixteen you are seen as immature, a young adult that has no knowlege of the world, but two years later you can live in California and Iraq and Afghanistan all by yourself. No regrets just curious on what the age limit should be.

The M16 A2 service rifle can fire a 5.56 millimeter round that is a Ball, Blank, Dummy, or Tracer 1800 meters to drive into his enemy. It is a lightweight, magazine fed, gas operated, air cooled, shoulder fired weapon that with an open sight i can hit a 12 inch target in the center from 500 meters away..

This is my life now, Your best friend, Your worst enemy. Still soft hearted just hard on the outside, thats a united states marine. i will try to remain posting even though this site is truly deserted. I would like to thank Karen for showing me that even though deserted, It is not dead, and neither am I.

                                                                               Comment if you stumble across.. - PFC Joel Bruce


Monday, September 11, 2006

I guess its time to move onto my space


Wednesday, July 05, 2006

back again


Well i dont know if anyone gets on to this site anymore but i hate my space so i really don't care if im alone....i usually am anyway. Life has been pretty unfair and i try to get by the best way I can but I always feel like i have a weight and that if i don't a chance with something it will always be there. I'm starting to believe its a lost hope that its never going to happen the way I want it to even though sometimes I beilieve in it coming back.
    How can I compete with the person who has the thing I want I mean he does have it. Do you ever wait for the phone to ring so badly that sometimes it rings in your imagination and you go to pick it up only to find it never rang at all? I do... Life is so fucking over rated. There is a saying    Its better to have loved and lost than have never loved at all. Sometimes I don't believe that saying and other times I do. The sad thing is I'll probably wait as long a time makes me wait. I'M NOBODY TO FEAR i've learned my lesson but there is still lessons to teach. Usually my saying is what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but the funny thing is I don't feel much stronger.
    Then there is the case of 200 miles away is something you don't know is there until you go and look for it until 5 a.m in the morning and find it and get closer to it but then realize its still 200 miles away. someone told me that when I feel down I should write my thoughts down on paper but instead I'm going to spread the word of my mind to a site that is pretty much dead to the nation/town. Some times i feel so close to someone and then realize that their still with someone else yet I still make the decision to follow my heart. It has always led me right and made me happy in the end but this is the biggest thing I've ever had to face and lately its saying to wait for something that looks like its running in the oppisite direction but saying it will return. I guess only time will tell if the thing I long for makes the decision in favor for me but you have to remember times a bitch.



    We both lie silent and still in the dead of the night
    Although we both lie close together
    we feel miles apart inside
    was it something I said or something I did
    did my words not come out right
    though I tried not to hurt you
    though I tried but I guess thats why they say
    Every Rose Has Its Thorns
    just like every night has its dawn
    just every cowboy sings his sad sad song
    Every Rose Has Its Thorns


Monday, March 13, 2006

Sometimes i feel like nothing is really worth it in life right now like in 200 yearsa no one is going to kn ow that you even existed so what does it matter and i feel like my heart has been ripped to shreds. I feel like i can get anyhting I want right now except for the one thing that i really want. I never thought that the best thing that had ever happened to me could be so cruel to me now. Sometimes i just live in the memories of the best times of my life even though I didn't know it at the time. I know now that promises can be broken even by the most beautiful people. I've learned a lot about how people can be there for you one day and not want to have anything to do with you the next. its true what they say and please listen you really don't know what you have till its gone. The best thing in my life is just like a dream that you just can't quite remember when you wake up in the morning even though it was one of the best dreams you had ever had. once that one thing is gone you feel like you have nothing especially if it deserts you. Its like a star you want to have it and you know you can't reach it, you can't touch it but you just keep trying. I would give anything sometimes to be able to turn back time and make things right for the future that is here and now. YOUR FUTURE YOUR DREAMS CAN VANISH JUST AS FAST AS MINE DID. All good comes to those who wait. I hope and pray to god that that is true. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger yet i feel more weak every day. Its almost like i never knew the one thing i wish i knew now. The truth is my dream,my best thing, my heart and soul, my star, my strength........Is dead.


Friday, February 10, 2006

So im thinking about quitting xanga because i  made a deal with someone to keep posting and their not keeping their part up i don't know what to u people think



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